Humiliation by John Yohe
Although normally the first person humiliated the second person, the first person secretly fantasized about being humiliated too. The second person had always normally fantasized about being humiliated, but when the first person confessed to wanting to be humiliated, the second person decided to try being humiliating, because the first person had been so good at humiliating that the second person wanted to do something to please the first person. But though enjoyable, the second person found humiliating the first person less humiliating, and that the first person humiliated the second person less, which was not as humiliating.
As they took turns humiliating and being humiliated by each other, they developed the humiliating fantasy of a third person humiliating them both. A win-win-win situation. The third person humiliating the second person, and thereby humiliating the first person. The second person being humiliated by the third person, while still being able to humiliate the first person. The first person being humiliated by both, while also knowing that the second person was being properly humiliated.
Humiliatingly, the second person decided to leave the first person and be humiliated by the third person all the time. Though humiliated, the first person understood, but still liked to be humiliated, which was humiliating, and still asked the second person for humiliation, which was even more humiliating. And because the second person didn’t want to humiliate the first person, the second person sometimes humiliated the first person as a form of humiliation, though it was humiliating for both.
The bigger humiliation though, came when the third person didn’t want to humiliate the second person anymore. Humiliated, the second person returned to the first person, and to make up for not wanting to humiliate, or be humiliated, the second person humiliated the first person and, to reciprocate, the first person humiliated the second person, though each still secretly longed to be humiliated by the other, all the time.
Born in Puerto Rico, John Yohe grew up in Michigan, and currently lives in Portland, Oregon. He has worked as a wildland firefighter, deckhand/oiler, runner/busboy, bike messenger, wilderness ranger, as well as a teacher of writing. He has lived in Mexico, Spain, France, and traveled to six continents. His first full-length collection of poetry, What Nothing Reveals, is out now. His work has appeared previously in such journals as Fence, Rattapallax, Rattle, and The Hat. A complete list of his publications, and poetry, fiction and non-fiction writing samples, can be found at his website: johnyohe.com.